I like meeting people that I can fastforward past the reserved respect and polite and go straight to the “finer” details of raw uncut, unedited honest to goodness speech. A quality occurrence that I’m realizing that I took for granted as “normal” before.
I have met a good handful of new faces the past month but not yet have I felt comfortable nor ready to cut loose and let the whole spectrum of my personality show past the annoyingly squeaky clean image they have already created for me.
Which is either the soft spoken, a bit too polite asian girl or the quiet shy yet bubbly one.
A genunine image to which I realize I helped put upon myself but still…mannnn oh mann does it set me up for being coddled or underestimated. The sucky part being the latter. lol.
But it does, I suppose give me the arms length away distance that I feel is needed.
I no longer want to be in the same position of being too trusting and too attached too fast.